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God Thing

12/17/17

Just like he,
I was created to be a conduit
Of creativity
It flows through me.

And your love,
I was created for it to flow through me
Endlessly,
For me to give and receive.

Spit apart,
Torn from the whole,
We’re one and the same
You and me.

I now can see I once was up there with you.
You being God
And me being God.

Then I was cut out
Like a piece from a mound of clay
And I could see that others would follow
As I floated away.

And now I know why I am God
Because although I no longer see you
I saw us together and I saw us apart
My being is part of you.

You are the substance of me
And now I see
That God is not just in me
God is all of me.

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Valentine’s Day

Opening up my heart again,
Damn!
Will I ever let you in?
Can I trust you?
I guess we’ll see.
Is it worth it, meant to be?
Your love cast a spell on me
But I’m wiser now,
I know how to break free.
This is it
Your last chance.
I’ll do my part
The best I can.
I’ll trust my God
Over you
Over me
Universe pulling us each
to our individual destiny.
Bi polar type 2, divorce, isolation, loneliness, marriage therapy

Loneliness

1/18/17
Loneliness

What does it look like to be free of you?
What does it feel like to be ok, alone?
That ache in my chest
It begins inside of me.
Why do I feel it as soon as I leave your presence?
Sometimes, it’s there when I’m right next to you.
Breakfast with a friend,
You and me talking about our days, 
Fellowship meetings,
Getting little love bouquets. 
If I’m so lonely with you here
How will I stand it when you’re gone?
Loneliness 
It begins inside of me.

Is this loneliness, or is this sadness?
Does this feeling have anything to do with you?
Or anyone?
Loneliness 
It begins inside of me.
divorce, honesty, marriage

The Outer Rings

10/23/16

Date night,
Uhh!
Everything feels so real,
When you’re being honest.
Not feeding the fantasy,
Not joining in the dance.
The candlelight, the sunset,
the romantic view…
But I no longer take my cue
to be
What’s expected of me.
Honesty with love and compassion
Cuts like a knife.
We’re both left bleeding.
There’s no quick fix,
No Tylenol.
There’s no promise for tomorrow,
There’s only today.
He can’t control this, and neither can I.
Our only hope for peace comes from You.