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Like a Drug

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Like a drug
Your love
It knocks me down
Puts me in withdrawal
Sends me high
Flying
Then I believe it’s worth it all
Like a drug
Your love
It inches away my life
Saps me of my energy
Leaves me desperate and lonely
Like a drug
I should quit you
And it will never feel good to do it
And when you tempt me
With your presence
I should resist
Without you life is mundane
With you it’s insane
Loving and hating
Will we ever stop this crazy game
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Secrets

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3/4/17

Why do we hide
What’s truly inside
Pretending that we’re all the same?
But what we don’t know
Until we let it go
Is we are all truly the same.

 

 

 

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Fantasy

10/26/16
Trapped

Alone
Isolated
Hopeless
This is when I turn to you
Fantasy
You give me
Comfort
Pleasure
Significance
Connection
Confidence
How can this be?
Fantasy
You are only an illusion
All In my head
Moving my heart
Disconnecting me from my present
Blocking me from my responsibilities
Numbing me not only to my pain,
But to those I love
Fantasy