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Love Once Again

1/1/20
Our backs pressed together 
In the hot hot room 
Chasing away the cold
Of our lonely hearts

Holding you close

Lies and deceit

All that you’re hiding
Keeping us apart
Visions and truth
I loved in denial 
Desperate to feel your tender salve 
Still I hurt 
Just like I did then 
That empty hollow echo
Of longing within 
No longer bandaging the pain
I think I’m healing
I’m letting it breathe 
I know I will love
And be loved once again
12 step, Addiction, codependency, denial, energy, facing the truth, letting go, poem, poetry

Like a Drug

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Like a drug
Your love
It knocks me down
Puts me in withdrawal
Sends me high
Flying
Then I believe it’s worth it all
Like a drug
Your love
It inches away my life
Saps me of my energy
Leaves me desperate and lonely
Like a drug
I should quit you
And it will never feel good to do it
And when you tempt me
With your presence
I should resist
Without you life is mundane
With you it’s insane
Loving and hating
Will we ever stop this crazy game
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Holding Space

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6/5/18
Holding space,

Not saving face,

You killed me with your kind embrace,
Your eyes and with your heart.
The only one,
The lonely one,

Loving from worlds apart.

Now I know what it means,
To hold space for someone,
To believe in what is not seen,
And create the world.
And now I must do the same,
To imagine their smiles and remember their love.
To know that we will one day laugh again.
I’ll hold the space for you my friends.
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Love Waves

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4/1/18

Somebody’s sending me love tonight
I don’t know who
And I don’t know why
I’m afraid if I touch it then it won’t stay
So I carefully
Gently
Glance in its way

I’m also afraid of who it might be
If it is
If it isn’t
Either way, it scares me
I’m not afraid of him
I’m afraid of loving and losing
Afraid of the pain that comes
After each new reunion

Maybe it’s her
The one praying for me
Or maybe a friend
Sending me good energy
It could even be Source
Answering an earlier prayer
The one where I asked for help
In humble despair

Seeking a Source outside of me
Seeking a love from someone other than me
That all fades
It blows away like dust
With nothing left
But my silhouette in the mirror
Seeing me
Accepting me
Loving me

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My Love

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2/13/18

My Love,

No one compares to you.  Nothing compares to you.  You are the ocean. You’re the stars.  You’re the rhythm that beats my heart.  Your waves wash over me and I’m swimming in your love.  You take me to heaven, kissing me with starlight.  You lay me down with sunset and hold me tight through the night.