As I sit and feel the sadness
That I’ve been so desperately trying to escape
I know it comes from deep within
They hold this heartache.
It tells me lies that feel so true
You are not enough
They don’t want you,
Your brown skin.
At 42 with two young children,
Prepare to be alone forever.
That’s the message I see when I look out
That’s the message I hear when I look within.
I’ve been warned that they are coming
I’ve been encouraged that I’m strong enough to face them.
Fear, sadness and guilt have kept me frozen.
But you deserve more than that,
And I want more too.